Monday, November 30, 2009

This will be short

Friday night I ended up going to work and eating my obsession, caesar salad with blackened chicken. I cant stop eating it I have a minimum of three a week sometimes up to 2 more. Then I went home because Chase had to close for Davey cause he hurt his back. Saturday I worked a dbl. That morning I made a little money, then I came back at 430 to host and closed the host stand, Kevan wanted to leave early and what do I care. But I didnt stay late and hang out cause the bar was too full. Chase was supposed to serve, but Davey called in again so he had to bartend then close the restuarant as the MOD. Sunday was another dbl, it ended up being a fairly profitable day. I served both shifts. When I came back that night Chase was behind the bar, yep thats right, Davey called in again and Alexis wouldnt stay cause she had finals to study for and homework. But I can understand that because I had to take my flash cards of muscles to work with me Sunday night. I ended up staying there a little later than I should have. Zach Ryan was up there drinking so when I got off he wanted me to come sit with him at the bar. So, I hung out with Chase, Zach, and Hunt for a bit watching the Steelers game. Today I spent the whole day studying and taking tests. First, I had my last regular math test, and I think I got my first B on a test in that class to date on it. But oh well I should still get an A in there. Then I went to mom's and read my flash cards like a thousand times while she put lights on the Christmas tree. Once I went back to school I had my second to last A&P test, it was a lab test over muscles and once it was over I felt like I did better than I thought I would. I think I should have got a B with the 10 points extra credit from the sheep brain dissection last week.
As for the rest of the week... No real plans, dinner with Pat either tomorrow or Thursday, SoA season final 10pm tomorrow, work Thursday -Sunday am, and studying for those finals on Monday. Thats it! My life is boring...

Friday, November 27, 2009

A little early this week...

So, I figure Ill let you know how things have been going this week since I am bored and thats not looking like its going to fix itself any time soon. Went to school on Monday, Tuesday did nothing really. I went shopping and Chase came over to watch SoA and then we hung out til all hours of the night. In general it was a good day. Wednesday I skipped one of my classes cause I only had one that was meeting and I couldnt bring myself to go down there that evening. Its the only class I have missed all semester so I guess I deserve it. Then that afternoon Kevan called from work and wanted me to come in and host for him so I did, screw it I needed the money and had no plans. Then came Thursday, the infamous Turkey Day.
Well, my dads family came here. First, my dog freaked out when my aunt and her husband showed up, so I decided he would be banished to my room this year. Then, when Kurt showed up Diana freaked out and cried the first 30minutes they were here, straight. He said she was fine all the way here and the walk up to the porch, but he sether down on the porch to open the front door and she started crying and would not stop. She finally stopped when my cousin Toni got over with her kids, one which is just a little older than Diana and one that is a little younger. When Diana saw other kids and that they werent being stupid she stopped crying. After that it was just normal I guess. My uncle Harold was kinda mean to my dad he was just joking around but it was mean and my dad isnt feeling so great still right now cause of the whole not working and holidays thing. Finally everyone left at 3 and I had a whole 30minutes to myself before I needed to leave for JoJos. I headed over there and things were fine, but once I got there I was just demotivated. I dont know why. I just couldnt even come up with real responses to questions, theyd ask something, esp mom, and I would just say yeah or no but not really elaborate. I dont even know what my deal was. I had to leave by 745ish so I could be at work shortly after we opened at 8. This is a whole new story.
Work was supposed to be really busy we bought all this extra beer, had a second bar set up in the other room. Had a band playing and 7 people working plus 2 on the door. Well, this was not necessary. It got busy but not as busy as we thought. We made more money than last Thanksgiving night, but it warrant all of us being there. Last year we did it with literally 5 employees and this year we had dbl which was just too much. So, this of course turned into money issues. Most people were thinking they would walk with a ton of tips and that did not happen. And there were some arguements and outbursts and people were all in all just not happy. I tired to just opt out of the tip out, I didnt want to be part of the problem. I was clocked in and got to drink so why should I care about 30 bucks. Had we all made a ton of money that would be different. But I could have let my money be split between everyone else. Chase was super pissed at Alexis. He is determined to get her fired. Which honestly she deserves that, not from last night, but in general cause she has made a lot of bad decisions while at work and there were at least 3 times she should have been fired for already. This just ended up being the icing on the cake of him being fed up with her and now he cant stand her and doesnt want to have to work with her ever again. Man, oh did i mention we didnt leave work until after 330? Cause I definitely didnt get home until 430. But Chase, Davey, and I did go have some White Castle before going home.
On the ride home, I got to see all the crazy bitches going out shopping. The Summit was packed! All these people at the gas station were all dressed up getting their coffee. You people are crazy. Maybe one day I will eat my words and go out for the deals when I have a family of my own. But I have worked in the mall on MANY Black Fridays and currently I have no intention of going out with all those crazy women and fighting for the last Elmo.
I am hungry, I am going to try to find someone to eat dinner with. If I fail I am going to work to eat, cause I have nowhere else to go and its cheaper that way. Dad went to his girl friends for dinner and I had Thanksgiving leftovers for my lunch/breakfast today. So, I am not in the mood for it again. Being that I have had turkey 3 meals out of 4 the last two days. Ill probably let you know Sunday if anything exciting happens from tonight until then but I doubt it. Tomorrow I work a double, then I work brunch Sunday morning and I realy need to study for my muscle test. I have not been putting in the time I need to for that. But for now, food.

Monday, November 23, 2009

Tough Weekend

So, last week there was nothing. Just school and work. Until Friday, I worked on Friday morning and Jordan had asked me if I could work for her hosting on Friday night which I said I would. So, I served in the morning and came back to host. When I got off I went to sit at the bar, I had a few drinks with Piper and Sarah. Then Chase took me home and thats when shit hit the fan. I dont even know how but things went from us having a great night, happy, joking, flirting, to me questioning everything between us and some mean things were said on his part and then I told him I would just never ask for anything ever again. I dont want to get into the particulars of the conversation but it was all just stupid. Unfortunately, for myself, I had told Will I would serve for him on Saturday night and Kevan I would host for him on Sunday night. Which means I was working 3 dbls in a row (being that I was scheduled to serve Sat and Sun mornings) and I was going to be with Chase on Saturday and Sunday night because he was managing both shifts. It was absolutely ridiculous. I literally would not talk to him, I would not look at him, if he was in the room I would walk out. I only spoke to him if I HAD to. He knew how mad I was but didnt bother to ask until Sunday night. Then I basically started crying but held it back cause I was still working. Finally, when I got off I asked him to come outside with me for a minute so we could talk. Well, I cried and said a lot of things I needed to say. Then he finally said a few things that I needed to hear. He apologized like 3 or 4 times maybe even more I stopped keeping track. But things are better. I feel better about "us" and I get it I get "us" and even if no one but he and I do then who cares we know what this is we get it and we are happy. I wish I could put things into words to explain everything to people better, but I just hope everyone can trust what I know and say and be happy that I am ok with things as they are.
This week, I have school today, then I am off Tuesday and Wednesday from work and school. Thursday of course is Thanksgiving, which we will have the family here at the house and then I will go to JoJos and then I will go to work. Yes, work. I will be working from approx. 830pm to 4 am on Thanksgiving. But it should mean $$$. Friday I will be off in the morning the evening maybe another story. And after that I have no idea what is going on.
In regards to having Thanksgiving here at the house. Last week I got my room cleaned up and ready to go but I still have to get the cubbyhole room cleaned up in the next two days. My dad on the other hand has not finished doing any of what he started in the kitchen and its super frustrating. I wish he wouldnt half ass do things. Either do it and finish it in a reasonable amount of time or just dont even start the shit.
Oh, and one last thing. I have a ticket to Rob Zombie tomorrow and I am not going. Here is the deal. My friend Cheech bought me two concert tickets, a tshirt, and a lamp for my birthday plus took me to dinner a few days after my birthday. That is WAY too much. We dated a few years ago for a short time. But he never has gotten over me. He has been obsessed with my friend Laura before me and now I feel he is still obsessed with me. I am not trying to encourage this behavior. Plus the concert tickets feel like I am being trapped or pushed into spending time with him whether I want to or not. So, I have lied and told my friend Jeremy I feel sick and I am giving him the ticket for tomorrow. I will lie to Cheech tomorrow and tell him I am sick and thats why I am giving Jeremy the ticket. I know its messed up, but this is the only way I know how to handle this. I do not want to be forced to spend time with someone. It makes me uncomfortable and I have someone I want to be with and its not Cheech. I admit I have made a mistake by not being straightforward and telling him that I have serious feelings for Chase and that he has no chance anymore but its hard to be so mean and blunt and hurt a friend. But thats what this is going to come down to. Telling him I have someone and its not him and it wont be EVER.
So, there you go, until next week, prolly this coming Sunday....

Sunday, November 15, 2009

This weeks nothingness

Well, as I mentioned last week not too much exciting was happening this week. Went to dinner with Pat and that was fun, we went to Mitchell's Fish Market and it was good. We caught up on everything thats happened in the last few months but other than that no real news. Went to Columbus for the Trivium and Chimaira show. It was excellent, Chimaira only got to play an 8 song set because they werent headlining but I enjoyed there song choices and stage presence. Trivium was wonderful, they played quite a few songs from there second album Ascendancy, which is my favorite. The lead singer and guitarist came out into the could twice and played, litterally not two feet in front of me and Cheech so that was sweet. And they finished the set with my FAVORITE of their songs! So, that made the trip to Columbus worth it. The only other thing I did this week was on Friday, I called JoJo cause I was going to try to go to eat dinner with them since I had no plans. But JoJo was super sick and turned out Bob went to Beattyville for General Beach's funeral. My mom was over at JoJo's at the time taking care of her. So, since all my family opitions for the evening were spent, I decided to go to the mall. Bad idea when you are alone and a tad depressed on Friday night. I spent WAY too much money, but I havent taken the tags off the jeans I bought I think I will take them back. Hopefully, I can get JoJo to take me to the store and she can buy the same ones and I can return the ones I bought, its sneaky I know but I need the jeans but dont wanna pay for them... Anywho, I am almost to the point of this story. I ate dinner alone at the bar in the El Nopal in the mall, and decided I was going to stop by work on the way home. I was like 930 and we start to slow down then plus Chase was working in the bar. I got there and Chris (my boss and Chase's dad) was likr Davey (the other bartendar) I am buying Shelby a drink. So, it just went from there. A few drinks later Davey was like ready for another and I said no and he poured another. Then the next time he took my dup when it was empty and Chase was like, "Man, shes not going to be able to drive herself home," so then Davey poured a stiff one and I figured Chase was taking me home. Unforunately, Chase also had to take Zach Ryan home so we went there first which is on Poplar Level by St. X, which if oyu dont know is REALLY far from my and Chase's homes. So, we take him home and then head back to my house, of course this is the first time in MONTHS my dad is home on a Friday night, but that didnt stop anything... My only comment is to not be drunk and have sex in a truck, you may not notice the steering wheel at your back or your knee inbetween the door and the seat at the time but the next day and perhaps the day after you sure will.
That was all the excitement I had this week. In regards to school, I took a math test that I think I may have gotten a 100% on. Then I have a test in A&P tomorrow night and I really should be studying for but I have no motivation for some reason today. So, I will do the norm and cram tomorrow after math. The worst part about the test is I have to stay until 7 after I finish the test for lab... BOO! I may go to the computer lab for a bit, or I guess she might open the lab for me so I can look over the muscles before lab as practice. Blah, thats the thing that sucks about being a quick test taker is waiting for everyone else to take the test. Normally, I would just leave but I dont need to skip this lab its over muscles of the appendages and I should be there. Especially, since the next week we are dissecting a sheep brain and then the following week is the practical test.
This week I dont think that much will happen. Lets look at the calendar shall we... Thats right its totally empty. Well, Saturday night is Laura's friends Thanksgiving. If I am going I am supposed to take some food. I guess I might I have no other plans so I suppose I should. I guess I am going to see what JoJo is doing on Tuesday and Friday then I have school on Monday and Wednesday all day, and work Thursday through Sunday but thats only in the morning. My life is boring. But I have no money to be spending, so not much I can do to change it. I used to fill my spare time with smoking but thats so demotivating I dont need to do that. Or pay for it.
So, I cant think of a decent way to wrap this up, so until next time...

Sunday, November 8, 2009

I forgot

Oh, and one last thing... My sister-in-law got H1N1, but when she went to the doctor they simply said she had "the flu". My niece, Diana who is like a year and half old, had gotten the seasonal flu shot, so they werent worried. But of course she got H1N1 from her mother. They had to take her to the hospital and she had a 104.2 degree fever. Now Ashley is pretty much better but Diana is fighting it off. Luckily her fever is no longer that high. Ashley is of course pissed because had they clarified at the doctor she had swine they would have sent the baby to stay at Kurt's mom's house rather than keeping her under the same roof. So, we are hoping she gets over it and fast. Chad and I spent an evening with Kurt and Diana right before she got sick but after she had been exposed. Also luckily, they say if you are going to get it then you will get it within 8 hours of exposure, so if she was going to give it to us we should have gotten sick by now. Keeping my fingers crossed I dont get this horrible swine shit thats going around. I cant afford to miss school, esp not since I am doing well, it will hurt my grade so much. And I monetarily cant afford to miss work cause in life there are these stupid things called bills....

Not much new

So, I am trying to get into the habit of blogging more often. Leslie gave me a hint on how to get a background for my blog, but I suck at the internet so I couldnt figure it out. It gave me some teenagers looking site that wanted me to download a toolbar, no thanks webfetti, Ill figure it out later. Seems like if I need to find something on the internet someone has to be here to show me.
Chase went to Alabama this weekend to see his sister and he was going to go to the Alabama LSU game but they couldnt get him another ticket, and his sister had a student ticket so he watched it in a bar. Today they were supposed to go to Birmingham to go shopping, I hope his weekend wasnt a total bust, but I know he needed to get out of town and away from the restuarant. I just hope we get to hang out this week.
As for school, I got a 98% on my last math test, so I definitely have an A there and I got a 95.3% on my last lab test in A&P so, now i have a 91% average! Thats awesome, I really want an A in this class and I hope I get it. I havent decided on a class to choose yet, but I am looking into taking the Chemistry class online and then I can deal with the time issue. And if I have to drop it I wont feel so bad. But if I have to take it online it will have to be through the Elizabethtown Campus, so I am inquiring to that as an issue at the moment.
I had to moles, removed from my back last week and the spots hurt so bad. But they were raised and I kept scratching them and that was also painful. I suppose in a few days they will be healed and then I wont have anymore issues with them. The dermatologist also gave me some prescription for my face because my chin has been outta control for months now. Although she did tell me it will be a few months before you can really see the results. So, double edged sword I suppose.
This week I do have some actual plans. I know amazing, right? I will be going to dinner with my step-dad Pat (really he is my ex-step-dad but I dont like that title, esp since he is my 2nd ex-step-dad) I have no idea where we are going to go of course I have to decide, all I know is we are goin Tuesday night. Then Saturday I am going to Colombus with Brian for a Trivium and Chimaira show. I should really be more excited about it but I am not looking forward to the drive esp since I will be working Saturday morning, the morning of the concert, and Sunday morning the morning after. And we have to take my car cause his is a POS. I a thinking I will drive up there and make him drive back. That way I can sleep or at least not drive 6 hours in one day. Oh, and my favorite show Sons of Anarchy is having a 90 minute episode Tuesday so I am looking forward to that, and hoping Chase will come over and watch it or at least come by afterward.
Well, thats all for this week.

Thursday, November 5, 2009

For Leslie


Well, as my good and oldest (meaning longest not oldest) friend Leslie pointed out I have not updated my blog recently. I should do this more often so I get in a better habit of it. But what I really need to do is figure out how to customize it like Leslie does hers. And add pictures, because right now its a boring blog and not so visually stimulating.
Moving on~ Recently I turned 25, yes, 25. I have to say off top that I really expected a lot out of my life by now and thought that things would be very different for me than they are now. I am not dissapointed in my life, I just would like a few things to be farther along than they are. But back to the birthday in general, the day itself was great. Got up went to lunch with JoJo and mom, then to the mall with them. JoJo bought me a two sweaters and a pair of boots and gave me a gift card for $50 to White House Black Market. Then I bought another pair of boots with the money mom and Cheri Beri gave me for my birthday. Then I went to White House Black Market in the Summit (because the one we went to in the mall that I got my sweaters at didnt have the right size of the pair of jeans I wanted) I got lucky and my size was in! So, I got them with the gift card and a little of the extra left from the boot purchase. It was a good shopping day. After that I spent the rest of the afternoon, getting ready for the evening and waiting for Chase. He called around 600 said he was going to shower and would be over. Luckily, for my birthday my dad was going to stay at his girlfriends so I could feel like an adult and not like I live with my dad. Chase came over and we hung out for a bit before dinner. We smoked, I hadnt smoked in 9 weeks and I got quite high. I have been trying not to smoke and concentrate on school. Then we went to Bonefish for dinner. It was great. He had the Ahi tuna and I had swordfish with a crab cake on top. The dinner was wonderful. After that we could have gone to Fox and Hound with people from work but I had a test the next day and I was afraid that I would get too trashed, being that it was my birthday and my coworkers would have no mercy. Instead we went to see Zombieland, yes I had already seen it but it was great and Chase hadnt so we went. After that we came back to my house and had some adult time.
The following weekend, was Halloween weekend, so my friends and I had planned to have a joint party for me and the holiday. My friend Leslie and her husband Adam were able to come. And David and Maci, Chase's younger brother and his gf. Other than that the group was our regular crew. Pretty much everyone was in costume and we all had a great time, in my opinion, really. Although, at 3 am I did call my mom and have her come get me so I could sleep in my old house on Chestnut St. in my little brothers bed (he was out of town) because I hate sleeping at other peoples homes and on an air mattress no less, blah. All in all I feel the party was a sucess.
As for school, things are going quite well, I know I am getting an A in my math course and I am having an odd pattern in my A&P grades. My test grades in A&P have gone like this 89, 91, 89, 91 so far. So, I just took a test Monday I dont have my grade back for it but I would guess I got an 89, lol. I guess we will see. My biggest problem with school is next semester. I have signed up for my classes but I am trying to figure out what I am going to do. I want to get into the radiography program, and I have a friend who says they can help me get an interview for the program and tell me what I need to say. So, I am feeling a little confident at the moment of getting into the program, not awesome but better than I previously did. Therefore, I really only need to take the rest of my classes to get into radiography, rather than my back up idea of going into dental hygiene. So, I was going to take Chemistry in case I need to go to U of L for dental hygiene, but I was instead going to take physics 171 to help with radiography. This is the issue both are on Tuesday Thursday one starts at 10 am the other at 545 pm. I do not want to take 2 classes only on one day and have a 5 hour gap inbetween them. One of them has to go, the problem is do I bank on radiography? Or do the safe thing and take the Chem?? Right now I am enrolled in both classes but I have to decide before tuition is due which to drop. ARGH! Life is confusing. I wish it was easier to get into this program and did not have to be so stressed about it!
Well, the only negative news I have is the day after my birthday. Like I said before, my birthday was excellent very positive and I felt good about it. But the next morning I woke up with a terrible feeling in my stomach. Within an hour I was in tears. To this day I have no idea why. I cried all morning 45 minutes getting ready and then all the way to school, I was just sad the rest of the day. I dont know what my deal was but I suppose it passed.
On another Chase note, I kind of feel more positive about things. He has been a lot better lately. More apt to spend time with me, wanted to take me out for my birthday it was his idea and he asked me. The other day he was texting me and it lasted a long time, and he kind of slipped up, I guess you could say. I said something about school and the job I will one day have making money, and he said "And Ill be asleep while you are at work." So, I replied with "Oh, so now that Ill be making money you are thinking of keeping me around, huh?" Jokingly of course and he just said "You never know." I am starting to feel more positive about things with him. But it has been a year and I need something to be solid. I guess after the holidays I will have to grow some balls and figure out what is going on. Time for another ultimatium, but I kinda suck at sticking to them. Blah... I do need to get my shit together in regards to him, because there is an actually good guy I have known for a long time that I would hate to turn down and run off for no reason. Why is life so complicated?