Update

So, I havent been on here lately, almost too much has been happening. The short story, is I have cut myself off from the boy I am in love with and have been waiting for now for 10 months. I cannot wait for him anymore because I am starting to believe I was waiting for nothing the entire time. But this isnt easy, I have to work with him and his ENTIRE family, needless to say I may not be there too much longer if things dont get any better. I am tired of him just acting like we are friends and thats all its ever been it just infuriates me. I suppose its his indifference to the situation that upsets me, but really he has been nothing but indifference forever now so again this is just something to get over. I just wish I could get over him altogether.
Then my mom who is sick, she has CLL, which is a complicated type of leukemia. And she had to have surgery to fix her bladder that got messed up when she had her hysterectomy. This took place on Thursday, a surgery that was supposed to take 2 and a half hours, ended up taking 6 and a half hours. The doctor did a horrible job of telling us what was going on and why it was taking so long. Then after the surgery not only did we have to wait in this little room to talk to the doctor, but when she showed up she was defensive and making excuses. I was just furious with the entire thing. But it doesnt end there, ever since the surgery my mom has been stuck in the hospital because her o2 levels in her blood are dangerously low. They kept asking if she was a smoker or had emphasema or COPD, which obviuosly is not the case. I am just worn out I had three days off and spent 90% of the time in the hospital. But at least now my mom is ok and going home, well to JoJo's where she needs to stay for at least a week in my opinion.
There are also some shitty things going on with me and my health, but I dont feel like going into any detail until I get some answers myself.
School starts tomorrow, part of me wants my classes to get out early and not have to do anything, but the other part of me wants to jump in and get going, plus if I dont really have class tomorrow then I will have WAY too much down time in between my classes. But if thats the case I have a friend I want to try to surprise.....
We will see how tomrrow goes, another day, and slightly closer to moving on...