I suck

So, wow I just realized I havent updated since before Christmas, therefore there is no possible way for me to remember all that happen. I can tell you most of what I did from the last post until January 11th, I worked, a lot. Since January 11th I have been in school and working and had even less free time.
Christmas nothing exciting happened except Chase got me a Pandora bracelet. It's really pretty and super nice and it was expensive and he picked it out all by himself. Literally, he had to pick out each bead, there are only 3 but still. On New Years I worked but we (Chase and I) actually managed to get out of work early and we went to Jeremy and Megan for a little party. It was fun and I was really excited that I got to spend New Years with Chase.
Other than that there was no news from the "holidays", they were just busy and uneventful. Now I am in school and its really sucky. I have 3 entry level classes I never took so they are full of young kids and people just getting back into school. So, that sucks, and we dont really do anything I spend one whole day sitting and listening occasionally writing. Then I have physics on Tues and Thurs night and thats a lot of listening and writing. But other than that school is boring. I am thinking of transferring to Spencerian in March, and I will be dropping my classes at JCC. Its not set in stone I am looking into an option. I will give more info when I have some more info.
I am working my old in school schedule, plus I have worked the last 2 Saturday nights, so I am taking more classes and working more than last semester. But if I make this school change it will drastically effect my ability to work and I guess I am preparing for what that will mean. Because even if I have to go to school more my bills wont go away and I will have to pay them somehow.
I want to do my taxes, but I am still waiting on a statement from Bob's back about this money JoJo invested in my name. It sucks because I have everything together and ready to go except this paper. And I also dont know if I can do them online this year because I have all these new papers, tuition and investments. Blah, I just want my refund so I can pay off two bills and have some more in savings, maybe if I am lucky buy a mattress. We will see, when and if I ever get to do them.
Well, this was very random and unfortunately not THAT informative. But what can I say, work, school, work, school. Thats my life.
Oh, JoJo is having surgery tomorrow, that bladder sling thing a much simpler version of what my mom had. I am not too worried, hope thats a good sign.

Boring

So, nothing has happened since last post. Literally, nothing. Went to a cookie exchange (Thursday) with a couple people from work and a bunch of people I did not know. Then went to dinner with Susie the next day with one of her friends and a bunch of people I did not know. Turns out a few of them were Jesus freaks. I have nothing against Jesus or people who love him but I am not used to eating dinner with 6 of them, and I felt a little out of place and had to be careful what I said. Saturday I literally went to work in the morning and slept the rest of the day cause I stayed up way to late Friday night with Chase. Sunday I went to work and went to Jeremy and Megans so Megan could cut my hair. That was pretty fun Asa, Gretchen, and Little Asa where there as well as Chase and David. We had pizza, I got my hair cut and then we watched some football. Yesterday, Monday, I went to JoJo's she and mom where cleaning the house. Not exciting. I went to work last night to sit with Chase while he bartended and we watched the 49ers, Cardinals game. Bad game. Chase ended up getting knocked out of his Fantasy Football playoffs because of the game. He was very upset. But other than that it was fun. I ate dinner there my norm, blackened chicken caesar.
Today I got up late, went to WalMart and did a little cleaning. Next I am going to get my sisterinlaw and we are going to finish Christmas shopping. Tomorrow Ill be having lunch with Jim, he is in town for the holiday, and I get to meet his girl finally. Then I have work tomorrow night, Thursday morning, and dbls on Friday and Saturday and work Sunday morning. Plus there is a surprise party for Jim Saturday night which I will not make it to until I get off work. I have to work Friday and Saturday night because Jordan is having surgery on Friday and no one else can do her job. Blah. Thats my life!

So, nothing happened really since my last blog. I worked a lot over the weekend and it wasnt that eventful. Made a little money but I can always use more. I took my finals yesterday. Really it was halfway pointless. I needed an A on both tests to get an A in the classes, and if I got anything but an A then I would get a B in the classes. On my math test I didnt ace it but I didnt fail it. So, we will have to see how it goes. I was a little upset with myself because some of the questions I just didnt remember how to even approach. Even with the index card full of equations we were allowed I still couldnt figure them out. Blah. But then I felt pretty good about my last A&P test. It was a little easier than I thought. The teacher even already posted the results! I got an 87 which was just high enough! I got an A in the class! I got a 91! I couldnt believe it. I am really excited, that class was a lot of work. I really hope that I get an A in the math class because I have had an A the entire time and it will be very disappointing to get a B now.
Things with Chase have been really good. I am very happy and we are doing well. He has been trying to get me to tell him what I want for Christmas and its not that I dont want to tell him its that I really dont know. We had a conversation about it and it was hilarious. Basically, he says if I dont tell him like 4 pages worth of things that I want then he is getting me a shower caddy and and cat with 8 kittens. Yes, thats right. A shower caddy and a cat, with kittens. 8. It was the funniest moment ever when he suggested shower caddy. I laughed for 5 minutes. I even told him he could get me something to wear, thats not a t-shirt. Or a purse, or a necklace. Then yesterday I suggested those shoes for your butt, the Reebok EasyTone. I kinda want them the most unless he gets me some jewelry. You know until now I never wanted jewelry from a guy, but now I do. I think it does all have to do with the guy. Did I tell you what I got him? Shoes, cause his are falling apart and a little hurricane type pipe. I think I am going to get him another little thing too. Just to go ahead and spend $100, just in case. I want us to be even on what we get.
Well, I am done with school and only have work Thursday through Sunday, so I am trying to keep myself busy and occupied but its not easy. At least tomorrow I am going to do something with my JoJo so that will be good. Until next week....

This will be short

Friday night I ended up going to work and eating my obsession, caesar salad with blackened chicken. I cant stop eating it I have a minimum of three a week sometimes up to 2 more. Then I went home because Chase had to close for Davey cause he hurt his back. Saturday I worked a dbl. That morning I made a little money, then I came back at 430 to host and closed the host stand, Kevan wanted to leave early and what do I care. But I didnt stay late and hang out cause the bar was too full. Chase was supposed to serve, but Davey called in again so he had to bartend then close the restuarant as the MOD. Sunday was another dbl, it ended up being a fairly profitable day. I served both shifts. When I came back that night Chase was behind the bar, yep thats right, Davey called in again and Alexis wouldnt stay cause she had finals to study for and homework. But I can understand that because I had to take my flash cards of muscles to work with me Sunday night. I ended up staying there a little later than I should have. Zach Ryan was up there drinking so when I got off he wanted me to come sit with him at the bar. So, I hung out with Chase, Zach, and Hunt for a bit watching the Steelers game. Today I spent the whole day studying and taking tests. First, I had my last regular math test, and I think I got my first B on a test in that class to date on it. But oh well I should still get an A in there. Then I went to mom's and read my flash cards like a thousand times while she put lights on the Christmas tree. Once I went back to school I had my second to last A&P test, it was a lab test over muscles and once it was over I felt like I did better than I thought I would. I think I should have got a B with the 10 points extra credit from the sheep brain dissection last week.
As for the rest of the week... No real plans, dinner with Pat either tomorrow or Thursday, SoA season final 10pm tomorrow, work Thursday -Sunday am, and studying for those finals on Monday. Thats it! My life is boring...

A little early this week...

So, I figure Ill let you know how things have been going this week since I am bored and thats not looking like its going to fix itself any time soon. Went to school on Monday, Tuesday did nothing really. I went shopping and Chase came over to watch SoA and then we hung out til all hours of the night. In general it was a good day. Wednesday I skipped one of my classes cause I only had one that was meeting and I couldnt bring myself to go down there that evening. Its the only class I have missed all semester so I guess I deserve it. Then that afternoon Kevan called from work and wanted me to come in and host for him so I did, screw it I needed the money and had no plans. Then came Thursday, the infamous Turkey Day.
Well, my dads family came here. First, my dog freaked out when my aunt and her husband showed up, so I decided he would be banished to my room this year. Then, when Kurt showed up Diana freaked out and cried the first 30minutes they were here, straight. He said she was fine all the way here and the walk up to the porch, but he sether down on the porch to open the front door and she started crying and would not stop. She finally stopped when my cousin Toni got over with her kids, one which is just a little older than Diana and one that is a little younger. When Diana saw other kids and that they werent being stupid she stopped crying. After that it was just normal I guess. My uncle Harold was kinda mean to my dad he was just joking around but it was mean and my dad isnt feeling so great still right now cause of the whole not working and holidays thing. Finally everyone left at 3 and I had a whole 30minutes to myself before I needed to leave for JoJos. I headed over there and things were fine, but once I got there I was just demotivated. I dont know why. I just couldnt even come up with real responses to questions, theyd ask something, esp mom, and I would just say yeah or no but not really elaborate. I dont even know what my deal was. I had to leave by 745ish so I could be at work shortly after we opened at 8. This is a whole new story.
Work was supposed to be really busy we bought all this extra beer, had a second bar set up in the other room. Had a band playing and 7 people working plus 2 on the door. Well, this was not necessary. It got busy but not as busy as we thought. We made more money than last Thanksgiving night, but it warrant all of us being there. Last year we did it with literally 5 employees and this year we had dbl which was just too much. So, this of course turned into money issues. Most people were thinking they would walk with a ton of tips and that did not happen. And there were some arguements and outbursts and people were all in all just not happy. I tired to just opt out of the tip out, I didnt want to be part of the problem. I was clocked in and got to drink so why should I care about 30 bucks. Had we all made a ton of money that would be different. But I could have let my money be split between everyone else. Chase was super pissed at Alexis. He is determined to get her fired. Which honestly she deserves that, not from last night, but in general cause she has made a lot of bad decisions while at work and there were at least 3 times she should have been fired for already. This just ended up being the icing on the cake of him being fed up with her and now he cant stand her and doesnt want to have to work with her ever again. Man, oh did i mention we didnt leave work until after 330? Cause I definitely didnt get home until 430. But Chase, Davey, and I did go have some White Castle before going home.
On the ride home, I got to see all the crazy bitches going out shopping. The Summit was packed! All these people at the gas station were all dressed up getting their coffee. You people are crazy. Maybe one day I will eat my words and go out for the deals when I have a family of my own. But I have worked in the mall on MANY Black Fridays and currently I have no intention of going out with all those crazy women and fighting for the last Elmo.
I am hungry, I am going to try to find someone to eat dinner with. If I fail I am going to work to eat, cause I have nowhere else to go and its cheaper that way. Dad went to his girl friends for dinner and I had Thanksgiving leftovers for my lunch/breakfast today. So, I am not in the mood for it again. Being that I have had turkey 3 meals out of 4 the last two days. Ill probably let you know Sunday if anything exciting happens from tonight until then but I doubt it. Tomorrow I work a double, then I work brunch Sunday morning and I realy need to study for my muscle test. I have not been putting in the time I need to for that. But for now, food.

Tough Weekend

So, last week there was nothing. Just school and work. Until Friday, I worked on Friday morning and Jordan had asked me if I could work for her hosting on Friday night which I said I would. So, I served in the morning and came back to host. When I got off I went to sit at the bar, I had a few drinks with Piper and Sarah. Then Chase took me home and thats when shit hit the fan. I dont even know how but things went from us having a great night, happy, joking, flirting, to me questioning everything between us and some mean things were said on his part and then I told him I would just never ask for anything ever again. I dont want to get into the particulars of the conversation but it was all just stupid. Unfortunately, for myself, I had told Will I would serve for him on Saturday night and Kevan I would host for him on Sunday night. Which means I was working 3 dbls in a row (being that I was scheduled to serve Sat and Sun mornings) and I was going to be with Chase on Saturday and Sunday night because he was managing both shifts. It was absolutely ridiculous. I literally would not talk to him, I would not look at him, if he was in the room I would walk out. I only spoke to him if I HAD to. He knew how mad I was but didnt bother to ask until Sunday night. Then I basically started crying but held it back cause I was still working. Finally, when I got off I asked him to come outside with me for a minute so we could talk. Well, I cried and said a lot of things I needed to say. Then he finally said a few things that I needed to hear. He apologized like 3 or 4 times maybe even more I stopped keeping track. But things are better. I feel better about "us" and I get it I get "us" and even if no one but he and I do then who cares we know what this is we get it and we are happy. I wish I could put things into words to explain everything to people better, but I just hope everyone can trust what I know and say and be happy that I am ok with things as they are.
This week, I have school today, then I am off Tuesday and Wednesday from work and school. Thursday of course is Thanksgiving, which we will have the family here at the house and then I will go to JoJos and then I will go to work. Yes, work. I will be working from approx. 830pm to 4 am on Thanksgiving. But it should mean $$$. Friday I will be off in the morning the evening maybe another story. And after that I have no idea what is going on.
In regards to having Thanksgiving here at the house. Last week I got my room cleaned up and ready to go but I still have to get the cubbyhole room cleaned up in the next two days. My dad on the other hand has not finished doing any of what he started in the kitchen and its super frustrating. I wish he wouldnt half ass do things. Either do it and finish it in a reasonable amount of time or just dont even start the shit.
Oh, and one last thing. I have a ticket to Rob Zombie tomorrow and I am not going. Here is the deal. My friend Cheech bought me two concert tickets, a tshirt, and a lamp for my birthday plus took me to dinner a few days after my birthday. That is WAY too much. We dated a few years ago for a short time. But he never has gotten over me. He has been obsessed with my friend Laura before me and now I feel he is still obsessed with me. I am not trying to encourage this behavior. Plus the concert tickets feel like I am being trapped or pushed into spending time with him whether I want to or not. So, I have lied and told my friend Jeremy I feel sick and I am giving him the ticket for tomorrow. I will lie to Cheech tomorrow and tell him I am sick and thats why I am giving Jeremy the ticket. I know its messed up, but this is the only way I know how to handle this. I do not want to be forced to spend time with someone. It makes me uncomfortable and I have someone I want to be with and its not Cheech. I admit I have made a mistake by not being straightforward and telling him that I have serious feelings for Chase and that he has no chance anymore but its hard to be so mean and blunt and hurt a friend. But thats what this is going to come down to. Telling him I have someone and its not him and it wont be EVER.
So, there you go, until next week, prolly this coming Sunday....

This weeks nothingness

Well, as I mentioned last week not too much exciting was happening this week. Went to dinner with Pat and that was fun, we went to Mitchell's Fish Market and it was good. We caught up on everything thats happened in the last few months but other than that no real news. Went to Columbus for the Trivium and Chimaira show. It was excellent, Chimaira only got to play an 8 song set because they werent headlining but I enjoyed there song choices and stage presence. Trivium was wonderful, they played quite a few songs from there second album Ascendancy, which is my favorite. The lead singer and guitarist came out into the could twice and played, litterally not two feet in front of me and Cheech so that was sweet. And they finished the set with my FAVORITE of their songs! So, that made the trip to Columbus worth it. The only other thing I did this week was on Friday, I called JoJo cause I was going to try to go to eat dinner with them since I had no plans. But JoJo was super sick and turned out Bob went to Beattyville for General Beach's funeral. My mom was over at JoJo's at the time taking care of her. So, since all my family opitions for the evening were spent, I decided to go to the mall. Bad idea when you are alone and a tad depressed on Friday night. I spent WAY too much money, but I havent taken the tags off the jeans I bought I think I will take them back. Hopefully, I can get JoJo to take me to the store and she can buy the same ones and I can return the ones I bought, its sneaky I know but I need the jeans but dont wanna pay for them... Anywho, I am almost to the point of this story. I ate dinner alone at the bar in the El Nopal in the mall, and decided I was going to stop by work on the way home. I was like 930 and we start to slow down then plus Chase was working in the bar. I got there and Chris (my boss and Chase's dad) was likr Davey (the other bartendar) I am buying Shelby a drink. So, it just went from there. A few drinks later Davey was like ready for another and I said no and he poured another. Then the next time he took my dup when it was empty and Chase was like, "Man, shes not going to be able to drive herself home," so then Davey poured a stiff one and I figured Chase was taking me home. Unforunately, Chase also had to take Zach Ryan home so we went there first which is on Poplar Level by St. X, which if oyu dont know is REALLY far from my and Chase's homes. So, we take him home and then head back to my house, of course this is the first time in MONTHS my dad is home on a Friday night, but that didnt stop anything... My only comment is to not be drunk and have sex in a truck, you may not notice the steering wheel at your back or your knee inbetween the door and the seat at the time but the next day and perhaps the day after you sure will.
That was all the excitement I had this week. In regards to school, I took a math test that I think I may have gotten a 100% on. Then I have a test in A&P tomorrow night and I really should be studying for but I have no motivation for some reason today. So, I will do the norm and cram tomorrow after math. The worst part about the test is I have to stay until 7 after I finish the test for lab... BOO! I may go to the computer lab for a bit, or I guess she might open the lab for me so I can look over the muscles before lab as practice. Blah, thats the thing that sucks about being a quick test taker is waiting for everyone else to take the test. Normally, I would just leave but I dont need to skip this lab its over muscles of the appendages and I should be there. Especially, since the next week we are dissecting a sheep brain and then the following week is the practical test.
This week I dont think that much will happen. Lets look at the calendar shall we... Thats right its totally empty. Well, Saturday night is Laura's friends Thanksgiving. If I am going I am supposed to take some food. I guess I might I have no other plans so I suppose I should. I guess I am going to see what JoJo is doing on Tuesday and Friday then I have school on Monday and Wednesday all day, and work Thursday through Sunday but thats only in the morning. My life is boring. But I have no money to be spending, so not much I can do to change it. I used to fill my spare time with smoking but thats so demotivating I dont need to do that. Or pay for it.
So, I cant think of a decent way to wrap this up, so until next time...