Tough Weekend

So, last week there was nothing. Just school and work. Until Friday, I worked on Friday morning and Jordan had asked me if I could work for her hosting on Friday night which I said I would. So, I served in the morning and came back to host. When I got off I went to sit at the bar, I had a few drinks with Piper and Sarah. Then Chase took me home and thats when shit hit the fan. I dont even know how but things went from us having a great night, happy, joking, flirting, to me questioning everything between us and some mean things were said on his part and then I told him I would just never ask for anything ever again. I dont want to get into the particulars of the conversation but it was all just stupid. Unfortunately, for myself, I had told Will I would serve for him on Saturday night and Kevan I would host for him on Sunday night. Which means I was working 3 dbls in a row (being that I was scheduled to serve Sat and Sun mornings) and I was going to be with Chase on Saturday and Sunday night because he was managing both shifts. It was absolutely ridiculous. I literally would not talk to him, I would not look at him, if he was in the room I would walk out. I only spoke to him if I HAD to. He knew how mad I was but didnt bother to ask until Sunday night. Then I basically started crying but held it back cause I was still working. Finally, when I got off I asked him to come outside with me for a minute so we could talk. Well, I cried and said a lot of things I needed to say. Then he finally said a few things that I needed to hear. He apologized like 3 or 4 times maybe even more I stopped keeping track. But things are better. I feel better about "us" and I get it I get "us" and even if no one but he and I do then who cares we know what this is we get it and we are happy. I wish I could put things into words to explain everything to people better, but I just hope everyone can trust what I know and say and be happy that I am ok with things as they are.
This week, I have school today, then I am off Tuesday and Wednesday from work and school. Thursday of course is Thanksgiving, which we will have the family here at the house and then I will go to JoJos and then I will go to work. Yes, work. I will be working from approx. 830pm to 4 am on Thanksgiving. But it should mean $$$. Friday I will be off in the morning the evening maybe another story. And after that I have no idea what is going on.
In regards to having Thanksgiving here at the house. Last week I got my room cleaned up and ready to go but I still have to get the cubbyhole room cleaned up in the next two days. My dad on the other hand has not finished doing any of what he started in the kitchen and its super frustrating. I wish he wouldnt half ass do things. Either do it and finish it in a reasonable amount of time or just dont even start the shit.
Oh, and one last thing. I have a ticket to Rob Zombie tomorrow and I am not going. Here is the deal. My friend Cheech bought me two concert tickets, a tshirt, and a lamp for my birthday plus took me to dinner a few days after my birthday. That is WAY too much. We dated a few years ago for a short time. But he never has gotten over me. He has been obsessed with my friend Laura before me and now I feel he is still obsessed with me. I am not trying to encourage this behavior. Plus the concert tickets feel like I am being trapped or pushed into spending time with him whether I want to or not. So, I have lied and told my friend Jeremy I feel sick and I am giving him the ticket for tomorrow. I will lie to Cheech tomorrow and tell him I am sick and thats why I am giving Jeremy the ticket. I know its messed up, but this is the only way I know how to handle this. I do not want to be forced to spend time with someone. It makes me uncomfortable and I have someone I want to be with and its not Cheech. I admit I have made a mistake by not being straightforward and telling him that I have serious feelings for Chase and that he has no chance anymore but its hard to be so mean and blunt and hurt a friend. But thats what this is going to come down to. Telling him I have someone and its not him and it wont be EVER.
So, there you go, until next week, prolly this coming Sunday....