Boring Week

I am updating because I need to but not much has happened. First, week back at school was boring nothing happened really at all. The new teacher is nice I think she will do great. Clinic was super boring as per usual. I asked to be moved, I think I am going to be going to Jewish Downtown starting in the summer semester. That will be good and I now know I just need to get my skills polished and as many exams down as possible before I go and learn what its like to take x-rays in a real full blown hospital.
Chase and I had a moment last week. Friday he came in and said he and his cousins and brother were going to Texas in late February to go boar hunting. This bothers me just a little, but its the going to Austin for a few extra days that bothers me. I am trying to get past it and get used to the idea but I just cant so far. Its not that I dont trust him and whatnot but I dont trust other people. Mostly it boils down to I dont understand why he wants to go and see these people he hasnt seen or even spoken to in 3 years. His response is because they are his friends. But in my mind if they are his friends why dont they call him? I am just afraid of whats there that he wants to go back to so bad but never talks about. I guess maybe its nothing and its me freaking out. I have horrible abandonment issues from growing up the way I did and I am so scared of losing him that I have materialized all these crazy thoughts and ideas. So, I am working past this and hoping that it all turns out just fine. The other issue with this trip is the money. But we talked about it and its ok. I just feel that the money he is spending could go to much better causes, like us trying to get a house in the spring. He says he does have money set back and that he wants the same thing, but he is waiting for his parents to sell that damn house is Texas, because the loan he has looks so bad on his credit and puts us available for a lower bracket home loan. I like his parents but this loan thing is starting to get to me, its now putting my entire life on hold. Its extremely frustrating and I dont really know what to do next...