So, its been rough. Went to two weddings out of town two weeks in a row. Above are picture with Tiff and Kelly at each of their weddings. Yeah, I know same dress... They were both very nice and beautiful and I am happy for their unions. But all the travel wore me out. Maine for 4 days then TN for 2. Plus school in between with 3 tests the day before I left for Maine. It was a bit crazy.
Luckily, I took a 3 week hiatus from work. I was trying it to help with stress, gain my weight back, deal with the Chase situation, and go out of town a lot. And it did help with some of those things. I have gone back to work, but I am working only Thursday through Sunday mornings. I gained back 8 lbs at last check, still could use 6 more but I may have gained them since my last doctors visit. My travels were safe and successful, but as for the Chase situation... Still in the same place. But I am just going to go with it. It has been a year now and I really do not know what else to do.
Yesterday Chad and I, my dad's youngest son- so my youngest brother, got in a huge fight. Which all I can figure was about his resentment toward me. But the thing is I am not even sure what it is he resents. He just kept saying crazy things weird comments and accusations that didnt even correspond or make any sense. I almost moved out of my house. I shouldnt have to feel under attack in my own house, I mean he doesnt even live here and he acts like I have no right to be here or something. Its weird I dont understand. But my dad and I talked and I am staying but this situation needs to be fixed.
I am a little upset with my so-called friends. On a good note Chad and Tiffany are being so gracious as to let us have a Halloween/My 25 Birthday Party at there home. But immediately after having made the plans to have said party, Laura and Tiff made plans to be Charlie's Angels with Kristen, Tiff's neighbor, which they have known substantially less than me. Oh, and I was in the room, thanks guys I am no one and this is supposed to be half my party awesome. Then Laura sends Tiff a facebook remark about how Amy is coming to town and she wants the girls to get together Sunday afternoon and go to Hubers. Awesome, I was the one who asked in September if we were going to Hubers this year and then I was completely left out of the entire thing. Tiff, was like "lol, Shelby she said girls", but she was just covering. Then I just sent out my facebook invites to the party and Simon, whom is Lauras cousin and a very intricate part of the group responded with a "maybe" RSVP to my party. That really hurts, I never ask anyone for anything or to come to anything and I haven't had a birthday party since I turned 21 and he wasnt living in town then and he cant even come to my party. I realize its on Halloween, but what else is he going to do? Go to 4th Street and NOT go home with a girl? Thats a better option and if he is going to someone elses party thats bullshit. We may not be friends like we are now if he doesnt come.
On a better note, there is my friend Adam. Really he is Tiffanys friend/other half that I have stolen. Dont be confused now, Tiff is married to Chad but her and Adam are like the same person. Its a long and complicated explanation. But it all goes back to "the philosophy". A new way for me too look at life. It is helping but slowly. Taking things one day at a time. Learning more and more. Anyway, Adam has a lot of insight and is helping me through all my issues.
That is all for now. This was a last minute post and is kinda jumbled but no one really reads this anyway...
Luckily, I took a 3 week hiatus from work. I was trying it to help with stress, gain my weight back, deal with the Chase situation, and go out of town a lot. And it did help with some of those things. I have gone back to work, but I am working only Thursday through Sunday mornings. I gained back 8 lbs at last check, still could use 6 more but I may have gained them since my last doctors visit. My travels were safe and successful, but as for the Chase situation... Still in the same place. But I am just going to go with it. It has been a year now and I really do not know what else to do.
Yesterday Chad and I, my dad's youngest son- so my youngest brother, got in a huge fight. Which all I can figure was about his resentment toward me. But the thing is I am not even sure what it is he resents. He just kept saying crazy things weird comments and accusations that didnt even correspond or make any sense. I almost moved out of my house. I shouldnt have to feel under attack in my own house, I mean he doesnt even live here and he acts like I have no right to be here or something. Its weird I dont understand. But my dad and I talked and I am staying but this situation needs to be fixed.
I am a little upset with my so-called friends. On a good note Chad and Tiffany are being so gracious as to let us have a Halloween/My 25 Birthday Party at there home. But immediately after having made the plans to have said party, Laura and Tiff made plans to be Charlie's Angels with Kristen, Tiff's neighbor, which they have known substantially less than me. Oh, and I was in the room, thanks guys I am no one and this is supposed to be half my party awesome. Then Laura sends Tiff a facebook remark about how Amy is coming to town and she wants the girls to get together Sunday afternoon and go to Hubers. Awesome, I was the one who asked in September if we were going to Hubers this year and then I was completely left out of the entire thing. Tiff, was like "lol, Shelby she said girls", but she was just covering. Then I just sent out my facebook invites to the party and Simon, whom is Lauras cousin and a very intricate part of the group responded with a "maybe" RSVP to my party. That really hurts, I never ask anyone for anything or to come to anything and I haven't had a birthday party since I turned 21 and he wasnt living in town then and he cant even come to my party. I realize its on Halloween, but what else is he going to do? Go to 4th Street and NOT go home with a girl? Thats a better option and if he is going to someone elses party thats bullshit. We may not be friends like we are now if he doesnt come.
On a better note, there is my friend Adam. Really he is Tiffanys friend/other half that I have stolen. Dont be confused now, Tiff is married to Chad but her and Adam are like the same person. Its a long and complicated explanation. But it all goes back to "the philosophy". A new way for me too look at life. It is helping but slowly. Taking things one day at a time. Learning more and more. Anyway, Adam has a lot of insight and is helping me through all my issues.
That is all for now. This was a last minute post and is kinda jumbled but no one really reads this anyway...
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